Set me free by Casting Crowns

It hasn't always been this way 

I remember brighter days 

Before the dark ones came 

Stole my mind 

Wrapped my soul in chains 

Now I live among the dead 

Fighting voices in my head 

Hoping someone hears me crying in the night 

And carries me away 

Set my free of the chains holding me 

Is anybody out there hearing me? 

Set me free 

Morning breaks another day 

Find me crying in the rain 

All alone with my demons I am 

Who is this man that comes my way? 

The dark ones shriek 

They scream His name 

Is this the One they say will set the captives free?

Jesus, rescue me 

As the God man passes by 

He looks straight through my eyes 

And darkness cannot hide 

Do you wanna me free? 

Lift your chains

I hold the key 

All Power on Heaven and earth belong to me 

You are free 

You are free 

You are free

Feeling of the day: Bubbly

"They start in my toes

Makes me crinkle my nose

Wherever it goes, I always know

That you make me smile

Please stay for awhile now

Just take your time, wherever you go

But what am I gonna say

when you make me feel this way? 

I just mm.. "

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For now, only Chociz will understand why =) 

wish you were here so we could just talk, give me hugs and camwhore! 

I love how now you are just a text or a phone call away that doesn't cost a fortune! =)

"But if my greatest fears paints itself so crystal clear, will I run away or will I hide?"

There's so many things to do!

 I know, I did take up some of those things at my own will. Like for example: my VCE solo dance. But, some of the other things (english descriptive writing, packing because I have to move on the first week of the hols etc.) just appeared and now I need to make sure I am able to finish them by a certain date. 

Sigh. 

Sigh. 

Sigh. 

There's also just thoughts and things I wanna do soon. I NEED a job because I'm using too much money; I want to help out in Fungus' Musical (choreo-ing a dance); I really wanna join the Fungus' Got Talent but I have no idea whether to sing or dance because dancing is my no. 1 choice but there isn't enough space in the sanctuary (i don't think) to do the solo i'm working on in VCE so if I want to dance I think I would probably need to choreo another dance and I don't know if I'm able to do that! 

I really, really, really want to dance in Fungus' Got Talent! I don't wanna see an opportunity for me to dance pass right in front of my face and not grab onto it! There's going to be a point in my life when I would have to stop dancing and that's why I don't want to lose any opportunities now when I can dance! Why can't I just do what I enjoy doing everyday. That's why I want my own dance studio. I can just go there and dance whenever I feel like it. But this isn't gonna even matter when I'm able to afford it cause I won't be able to dance as much anymore by then, I reckon. 

Bugaboo! =( 

Incomplete Lullaby

"When you stopped and held me close 

Inside I nearly froze 

Your touch is almost healing 

You left me feeling 

Tired 

Could not close my eyes 

On fire 

But frozen inside 

To run or to hide 

Speechless 

My words could not melt 

Whisper 

I wanted to shout 

Without you I felt 

Like a setting sun 

Like a last goodbye 

Like an incomplete lullaby"

~Lisa Mitchell

It was a beautiful day; spent with beautiful people

I had an awesome Friday! =DD

Below is my favourite picture of the day! She's so freaking hot =.=

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It was beautiful & sunny outside

Jacque & I took pics during recess

She loves me ;P

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Met up with Samantha Claire at Box Hill after school & we went to the food court for Sam to eat her lunch and have coffee!

Then we met Roxie & we went to her house to hang out and camwhore! =P

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We had alot of fun just hanging around, chatting and camwhoring =) 

& also getting thongs from Target ;P haha I love you

 s2 s2

Gosh! I miss her so much! I really hope I see her again on Tuesday! =)

Brainstorminggg..

I spoke to Michelle Clark, my dance teacher in school, about the idea Paul and I had. She gave us a few suggestions and all that. I figured out that I needed to organize my thinking a little bit. So here goes.. 

1. Why did we first come up with this idea? (Aim)
2. What do we want to present? (Theme/storyline)
3. Who would we show it to? (Target market)
4. Why would they want to watch this? 
5. Who would sponsor us? 
6. Why would they want to sponsor us?
7. How would we present this?
8. Where would we present this?
9. How many presentations will we give?
10. When do we want to present this?
    

Lalala brainstorming time =) I'm hungryy.. Starving actually! & we're most probably going to watch He's not that into you later =DD hehe Gotta go check times and eat dinner =DD

One word: Dance!

Last night, Jacque and I went to Complexions contemporary ballet which was at the State Theatre. And it was absolutely AMAZING! I'm not just saying it because I like dancing either. 

Especially the last dance that was a piece with U2 songs and I nearly cried watching it! It was beautiful! 

I feel really inspired after watching the ballet and I was chatting with Paul Koh yesterday night and a few ideas came up. I won't say for certain what we're planning on doing cause we're not sure too but it's def gonna involve photography and dance! But, I'm really excited to get this to work and it would be just a great experience to put my one of my wild, random ideas into works! It would be quite a big thing for me and I really hope it would work out! 

We still need to work out and details and I need to brainstorm ALOT! We also need to think of a way to make it unique and awesome!! 

But, I'm really really really excited and I don't feel like doing my homework now. LOLs 

Anyways, these are some photos we took after the ballet. Most of them are on fb =D

Jacque told me secret.. Complexions was awesome!! ;P

Complexions program =)

Jacque with the Arts Centre sign 

i love my dress =D

I try hard not to break

I had a very very emotionally shitty day.. Even though I went to church, everything after was just blaa.. Before this started to happen, I was texting chociz.. I really really felt like just going out with someone to just hang with and have fun but I couldn't think of anyone in Melb whom I could just give a call to talk to. Everyone I thought of would have been busy or doing something then. 

I texted chociz cause I knew she would understand: "I hate life now. I'm sick of having to pretend that everything in my life is okay just because people don't wanna be around people who are emo. I wish that I could just call up someone to go out & hang with me but honestly, my mind goes blank when I try to think of someone who wouldn't mind spending time with me even when I'm down, try to cheer me up & just being there for me."

She's awesome.. I love her so much.. I miss her too... I wish sydney was just a 2 hour train ride away.. I would go visit her when I miss her.. Australia's too huge.. =(

Very very very sorry Mich, for not updating for ages

I started the year absolutely wonderfully!

• I saw and caught up with many of my friends
  
• Slept over at Samantha Claire's, Mel's, Hill's (for many many days) and Sam's.
  
• Went to Sam's awesome party and wore a pretty dress that only costs 25ringgit =D & Sam's mom's friend did my make up and did a great job with it!
• Went to Thai to get heaps of clothings!
  
• Bought more clothing in PJ and KL =DD
  
• Got an ipod classic
  
• And the thing that made my year already the greatest one: I saw my fellow Cubez with consists of Caffyz (Hilly), Chociz (Sam) & Chiltz (me)
  

I wished we had more time together. 2 weeks to catch up that 2 years we've been away is nothing. But I have to say, I think I used the time I was given really well. Thank you, Samantha Low and Hillary Ang, for always loving me for who I am. Thank you for not judging my mistakes. And mostly, thank you for always treating me as one of your closest friends eventhough I can't always be there for you. =)

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School started on the 2nd of Feb, Monday. There's lots of new people and I felt like I'm going to a new school all over again for the first week or so. But now, I'm starting to meet new people and the people I've met are nice. I'm only doing 5 subjects in school (doing Indo on Sat mornings): Yr 12 Dance, Theatre Studies, Methods, Psych and Eng. So far, I like all my subjects and I hope that it continues that way =)

I've had lots to think about recently.. Whether to do Yr 12 Indo or Further and I finally decided on Indo. Then, I had to find music for my first Dance solo. I think I've found my music but I'm not really sure.. I also have to have an Expressive Intention. =/ I hope to start on it soon..

Today, we had our "audition" for BHSSC Cheer this year. It's not an actual audition. It's just to show Michelle and Sam and the other people how well people picked up the choreo. I think it went well. We had like 26 people signing up! Wow!! That's heaps! Last year we only had 8 people in our group! I hope most of the people stay! I mean, I hope all of the people stay! =P We're still planning about how it would run so I'm not really sure. But I'll definitely be helping out!

Fungus starts tmr! Yay! Can't wait to be back! & I can't believe that it's my 2nd last year in Fungus! =/ Haih.. oh welll.. let's not think about that now..

Alrighty.. Satisfied, Michie? ;P

I need to go do my hw! I'll try and update soon.. xx