Dedicated to Samantha Claire because she says so ;P

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:

1. Fly all my close friends to Australia (with no return tickets so that you guys have to stay here with me) ;P
2. Fly to Malaysia - to go shopping & to see you guys if No.1 is impossible!!
3. Cash, gift card and/or movie tickets!
4. Lots of dancewear!!!
5. Butterfly stuff!! =)

The person who tagged you this:

Samantha Claire

Your 5 impressions of her:

1. Pretty (thought she doesn't think so)
2. Organised!!
3. Loves shopping! (One reason why I love her so much) ;P
4. Creative
5. Misses me? ;P (I hope)

Most memorable things she has given/done for you:

I can go crazily hyper and she won't mind and she'll go hyper too. And I love that she's just there just to hang around and be with me.

If she becomes my lover, I will:

O.O Ask God if He really wants this to happen.

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

That I didn't go back to Malaysia for years and she misses me too much and therefore she is mad at me. ;P

Pass the quiz to the people that you wish to know how they feel about you:

1. Samantha Claire
2. Sammie (cousin)
3. Hilly
4. Kate
5. Marcia
6. Tony

Break my heart for what breaks Yours, Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause

I actually don't see any point in actually updating my blog much anymore cause nobody reads my blog anymore. Okay.. Except Kate, Marcia, Sam (cousin) and Sze Rong- sometimes, when he's bored only. ;P Haha! I finally added you, Sze Rong! I couldn't see my template stuff for awhile cause my internet was so slow.. & it's not just an excuse. However lazy I am I'm not that lazy. ;P

Marcia! Thanks! Though it was late but it's the thought that counts! =) Hmm.. Well, I'm doing pretty alright here. School's okay.. Dance is AWESOME!! (as usual!) I'm taking dance as a sport in school for this semester. And there's gonna be a performance thing, Kid's Kaberet, in September. It's gonna be for kindy kids! Gonna be fun! I'm gonna be a hunter, a hippo, a skin person and I don't know what more! I've also got a Rain solo and I'm also in Don Quixote (my teacher asked me to join the older class for this cause they needed more people and it's en pointe! I sprained my ankle about a month ago and it's still not better! I really need to practice en pointe!! But I'm just gonna leave it up to God. It's awesome, btw.) Hmm.. And we've got a common test this term. Hmm.. So not looking forward to it! Argh!! Hmm.. And I think that's about it. Oh!! I joined my youth group's dance and drama ministry (obviously ;P ), the worship team (singing!) and the welcoming team (it's pretty easy so yeah..)

I really should go.. I've got loads and loads of homework and I've hardly started!!! I'm getting so lazy.. All your fault! =P


Yes, you!


Hmm..


I should go!!

P.S. Those of you who have never heard Hosanna from Hillsong United.. GO LISTEN TO IT NOW!! -click on Hosanna for the one on myspace(music only) and click on LISTEN for the one on youtube(with video)- Enjoy! =D

I'm 15! =)

Thank you so much, Sam! I love it! Though you think it's not as good but still, it's the thought that counts! =) Love you loads!

10 days to my bday!! =D

Eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

For the cold, windy winter, guess what I got? It has something to do with dance & heat. =P

LEG WARMERS!!

Yay!

=D

Haha! I am a total nutcase for dancewear, incase you didn't know. ;P Or anything that looks dancey-ish.

Hmm.. And guess what colours I got them in?

Black

&&

Guess?? I'll give you a clue..

It's my favourite colour. =P

That's right!

PINK!

;P

Haha!

Hmm.. I love dancewear! =) Oh! And the leg warmers are warm too!! Well, they should be.. ;P It's their purpose. =)

Now I want black dance tights.. ;P

Prove me wrong.

Everyone judges without really knowing the truth.

No?

You don't agree?

I'm glad to be proven wrong.

Dance, anyone?

Hip hop or Funk, anyone?

Street latin?

Jazz?

Contemporary?

Popping and locking?

Lyrical?

So many dances i seem to want to learn. "How to pick? Which one first? Can I possible learn them all? Where to learn them? Where is a good place? How much will it cost to learn them?" So many questions.. But I remember something. My mom always said, "In this world, nothing is impossible." And my dad, "In high school, if there's anything you like to join or do, do it! If not, you'll regret when you grow older."

So, anyone? Up to join me for dancing? ;P

p/s. Make sure you actually live in Australia to join me! =) Others back in Malaysia, gotta find your own!! =P

Who needs friends who aren't trustworthy when you have a brother you can't trust?

No Greater Love

The Cross, the thorns

The blood, the stripes and the shame

The crowds, the scorns

They struck Him again and again

No greater love than this

That a king would give his life for me

No greater words than this

When love cried out, "Father forgive!"

Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life

Out of the darkness and into the light

We have been called

We have been saved

His blood the price, we're made alive

in Christ

The Word, the Light

All truth, all grace comes live

The man, the Christ

The perfect sacrifice

No greater love than this

That a man would give him life for a friend

No greater words than this

"I'll be with you, always, to the end!"

Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life

Out of the darkness into the light

We have been called

We have been saved

His blood the price, we're made alive

In Christ

Lyrics by, Kay Lee

Music by, San Weng Onn

I miss you...

s2

;P

Shouting.

I hate it when my parents shout.

If they shout at my siblings and I, it's usually because of something we did. Yes, maybe we did something wrong. But, they don't have to shout at us! It can get very, very irritating at times. Especially when you are in the middle of doing something.

Let's say, one morning, you are in a good mood. You decide to start on a short story you have to hand in that week. Once you started on the story, all the ideas came to you! You were typing and typing and typing. Then, your mom comes in and shouts at you about something. After that, she goes away. You look back at your computer and you can't help but to feel so drained out. You really don't feel like doing your homework anymore. And besides, all the ideas are gone from your head after all the shouting.

Although, it is not really that bad compared to your parents shouting at each other. I hate it when that happens!

I really do.

It's not that it irritates me more than my parents shouting me. It's just scary. Very scary. I mean, what if suddenly, one of them decided they were arguing too much and can't live with the other anymore? It nearly happened once when I was really young and it just scares me that it would happen again and this time my dad won't say sorry.

How can you be over something if it still hurt you?

When something happens, something we don't expect, something bad, most of the time, our brains try to act as if it never did happen. We go about our days like normal. It never happened, we tell ourself, we lie to ourself. Though, nothing will change the fact, it did happen. Nothing will change it. Not lying. Not pretending. Nothing will. But, there's no doubt, everyone likes to have hope that a certain bad thing, did not happen. We, humans live in hope. Our brains lie to ourself, hoping a miracle will happen to help cover up the truth.

But, you'll never be able to lie forever. Not even to yourself. Reality shows it's ugly face and you begin to realise. It strucks you like a lightning bolt, bringing you out of fantasy land and back into earth. It has happened! You feel the hurt, the pain, the lost, the loneliness. You start to cry. The whole time, it hurts like someone stabbed a hole into your heart. But, somehow, the knife is plunging deeper and deeper. You can't breathe! You feel suffocated! This goes on for hours. And as you cry, you begin to feel relief. All the pain you've been holding back seem to flow away with your tears. You feel exhausted and rather calm as you fall into a dreamless sleep.

You wake up the next day. It's a brand new day! And a brand new start of your life. You've released all the pain in you and it's time to move on. Friends seem to keep you going. They keep you up and your happy self. And you're life is busy. So many things to do! So many things to finish! So many things to learn! You go on with your life. Though there's something missing in your heart, everyone could hardly tell the difference.

Days pass. Months pass. I'm over it, you tell yourself. I can talk about it and I don't feel sad about it anymore. I'm over it!

Suddenly, one day, you sit down and think of it. Look through stuff that is related to it. I am over it anyways, I can look through these. It doesn't matter. But, as you look through all that, you feel the familiar sensation you felt months ago, the knife plunging into your heart, deeper and deeper and deeper. The feeling that you can't breathe. It suffocates you. It hurts you so much to face the truth. You ask yourself, How can something that doesn't matter to me anymore, hurt me so much? And the answer smacks you in the face,

It does matter to me.

It did for a long time and it still does.

And it will matter to me for a long time.

A very long time.

And there's nothing I can do about it.

Cause it's gone.

GONE.

Holidays are over.. School is back..

I haven't been blogging for ages!! Haha! Anyways, today is the last day of our autumn holidays. School starts tomorrow! Oh well, I miss ballet, anyways. I had 2 whole weeks of no ballet! I'm getting fat!!

The past week was pretty alright. Most of the time I've been online, chatting, cause there's nothing better to do. I went out with my friends to Forest Hill to watch Mr. Bean on Monday. And we also ended up watching the Ninja Turtle movie as well. It was pretty alright but we ended up spending most of our time we weren't in the cinema in the arcade. The guys wanted to play the games there. I wanted to get the stuffed toy penguin from the machine and Terence wasted 6 bucks for letting me try to get it. He got plenty of sweets instead! =P Haha! Then, on Wednesday, Grace, Victor, Terence, Tony, Bryan, Mark, my sister and I went to play badminton at Boxhill. Later, we went to the arcade and we played DDR!! =D It was so fun!!

The next Monday, we went out for a lunch at 12 pm a family friend we lost contact with and met again here. We went and eat dim sum!! I haven't eaten that for so long!! It was pretty good. =) We were all talking alot. We stayed in the restaurant a bit too long as the waitresses started telling us that the people who booked the tables next were here. Then, after that we went out to a park to chit chat. I had a vanilla milkshake! =D We ended up going home at about 4 pm!! On Tuesday, I went to play badminton again with Terence and his brother, friends and cousins. Later on, Tony and Victor joined us to go to the arcade. I wanted to play DDR again. We only ended playing it a couple of times as there were other people waiting to play it. Tony became so pro in DDR after one week!! Jealous.. =P Haha!

Yesterday, on Saturday, I went for my youth group's first drama and dance practices. The drama, Above All was at 10 am til 12 pm. And we finished learning the whole mime. =) It was pretty cool. And fun! Then, Audrey, the person in charge, asked me whether I wanted to join the other drama as well. She said "I can see that you can pick things up much more quicker than the others but then I guess, dancing helps". I think she needed another person for the drama and we only have 6 weeks to learn, practice and make it loook good!! At 1 to 3 pm, we had dance practice and it was awesome! I haven't danced for like 2 weeks so, I was really looking forward to dance practice. It was fun!! We are performing all 3 performances at camp in July. =D I'm so excited!! I woke up with sore muscles today, though. =P Oh well.. Used to it.

School starts tomorrow. Looking forward but not also.. Holidays are pretty boring but at the same time, school days are pretty tiring. Oh well.. There are things we just have to do, I guess. =) I should go now. Gotta wake up early tomorrow. =) Hope you guys have a great day!!

Only you and God knows how you're really feeling.
We hide how we are really feeling cause we know nobody else will understand.
Whether it's lonely,
unhappy,
weak,
disappointed,
betrayed,
sad,
pain,
terror,
or emptiness.
Nobody will really understand how you feel.
Except Him.
Learn to trust Him.
With all your heart.
As how you trusted your close friends.
But with Him,
He'll never betray you.
He always keeps his promise.
He loves you.
No matter what,
You'll be precious to Him.
Forever.

I told you, I'm not in your life anymore.

You said, no I am in your life.

But look at us now.

I am left out of your life.

Totally.

Completely.

And you know what?

It hurts not to know what's going on in your life.

You, not telling me about your day anymore.

Whose fault is it really?

Yours or mine?

Honestly, neither and both.

I'm sorry for not being there for you when I should have.

I regret not being the best that I could be.

I regret not appreciating you enough when I had the chance.

But regret ain't gonna change a thing.

Ever since I came here, all I wanted was to be with you.

To be in your arms and feel like I was wanted, trusted, secure and safe.

You saw who I am inside and who I can be.

You loved me for being me.

My imperfect, selfish and spoilt self.

But it is me.

Plain old me.

And I thank you so much for that.

You taught me so many thing.

Sometimes not even realising so.

And again, I have to say 'thank you' for that.

There's really nothing more I can say.

But, you'll always be someone special.

All our memories together will remain in my heart.

I've got to admit though, it hurts.

I don't know what will happen in the future.

Maybe not again.

But, who knows?

Maybe, again.

We'll just wait and see.

Hope is still in my heart.

I'll meet you there..

May you have a blessed day
Even if it is without much of me
But I'm still there
Though you can’t see me
I am there
In your heart
I'm thinking of you
Will be thinking of you
Till I see you again
Where the impossible become possible
And anything the greatest
Most creative mind could ever imagine
Would come true
Where anything
And everything could and would happen

I’ll meet you there, baby.
In my sweetest and most memorable dreams.


Love,
Kim.

From This Moment On

(I do swear that I'll always be there.

I'd give anything and everything

and I will always care.

Through weakness and strength,

happiness and sorrow,

for better, for worse,

I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun

From this moment you are the one

Right beside you is where I belong

From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed

I live only for your happiness

And for your love I'd give my last breath

From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart

Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start

You and I will never be apart

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this

There is nothing I wouldn't give

From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love

And you're the answer to my prayers from up above

All we need is just the two of us

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this

There is nothing I wouldn't give

From this moment

I will love you as long as I live

From this moment on

By, Shania Twain and Bryan White.

My Flight to Aussie (and how I got to Ormond College)

My flight to Aussie was on the 3rd at 9.45 pm (Malaysian) so we had to be there at about 7 pm (Malaysian). My dad, my mom and Tim went to KLIA with me to send me off. We were a little late, though cause we went and visit Sam for my sake(It was the last time I'd be seeing Sam till i go back to Malaysia). My friend whom I was travelling with, Chloe, was already there waiting for me. We had to wait really long to check in cause the systems were down for quite awhile. Which was okay, i guess, cause Chloe and i got up graded to business class seats somehow. The air stewardess kinda did a double take before pointing for us to go to the business class section.

Chloe and I didn't even know we given business class seats until we boarded the plane. Just minutes before, Chloe was just teasing the other girls cause their tickets read 'Economy Class' while ours read 'Business Club Class'. I didn't think much of it and by the way she was teasing, i knew she didn't think much of it as well. So, we were kinda suprised when we were pointed to got to the business class section. I told Chloe she should joke more often.

We boarded the plane at about 9.20 pm. Chloe and I were really eager for the plane to depart. So, we were really happy when the plane started moving. Chloe was like, "Why aren't we flying yet?" And we were really disappointed when the plane slowed down. Apparently, there were some technical errors. They served us some snacks and drinks. We only left at about 11.45 to 12 pm (Malaysian) which was like 2 hours later than the time we were suppose to depart. I just thank God that they realised it before we departed.

After we were in the air, Chloe started playing games and i started watching a movie while they served us our dinner which was buns and fruit, satay, prawn salad and beef steak with gravy and potatoes. The air stewardess even asked us whether we wanted desert which was apple and cinnamon something. But, Chloe and I were too full! We didn't even finish our beef steak!

Then, we went to sleep at about 2 am (Malaysian). It was so super comfy! Cause you can put the seats about all the way down. But, the flight was quite shaky so, Chloe kept on jerking out of sleep. I slept pretty well, I guess. I usually can't sleep properly on airplanes, so yeah.

At about 6 am (Malaysian), they turned on the lights to wake up those who want breakfast. They served us buns and all with fruits and juice. Chloe had her favourite, apple juice! While I had orange. After we finished our breakfast it was about time to land.

The landing was painful! At least for me. Both my ears were blocked! And i couldn't hear Chloe a couple of times when she was talking to me. And it was really painful! One thing i hate about flights is that the taking off and landing gives you ear blocks! One ear was really bad. The other not so bad but still blocked!!

Anyways, then we went out of the airplane. And one side of my ear was still blocked! We waited for the other girls to come out. All together there were 10 of us. While we were taking our luggage, we saw a cute little beagle being trained to sniff for illegal stuff. It was really cute. My luggage was easy to spot as I tied a bright purple plastic bag on the handle. Chloe was helping me look for my luggage cause I was taking care of our hand luggages. She was like, "Her luggage has a purple plastis bag tied to it. Oh! There it is!" *grabs the luggage with the help of Mei Li and Jessica. Mei Li saw her luggage go around twice but missed it twice! Finally, the last time, we managed to get it.

Then, we went through the declaration thinggy. And went out to meet the person who was supposed to bring us to the college. Apparently, she has waited for us for 2 hours plus and had to wait for some girls from New Zealand so, we had to get taxis by ourselves. So, we got 2 Maxi taxis, 5 girls in each taxi, to bring us to the college. Our taxi driver didn't know where is Ormond College and was expecting us to know. He was pissed of when HE got to the wrong place and blamed in on us. Luckily, we didn't get lost. The college was only on the opposite side.

Our taxi fee was extra compared to the the other group's fee, though. It was quite alot more. I think nearly ten dollars more. That's expensive. Oh well..

I'll continue my days in Ormond College in another post. I wanna go eat Tim Tams now. And Smith's. (For those people who haven't been to Aussie and have no idea what in the world are Tim Tams and Smith's well, Tim Tams are really absolutely fantastic chocolates and Smith's are really nice yummy chips that you usually can't get in Malaysia unless you know where to get them. And it's really expensive in Malaysia). That was suppose to make your mouth water!

Gotta go now. My stomach's calling out for snacks!

Love ya'll.

Miss me!