No Greater Love

The Cross, the thorns

The blood, the stripes and the shame

The crowds, the scorns

They struck Him again and again

No greater love than this

That a king would give his life for me

No greater words than this

When love cried out, "Father forgive!"

Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life

Out of the darkness and into the light

We have been called

We have been saved

His blood the price, we're made alive

in Christ

The Word, the Light

All truth, all grace comes live

The man, the Christ

The perfect sacrifice

No greater love than this

That a man would give him life for a friend

No greater words than this

"I'll be with you, always, to the end!"

Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life

Out of the darkness into the light

We have been called

We have been saved

His blood the price, we're made alive

In Christ

Lyrics by, Kay Lee

Music by, San Weng Onn

I miss you...

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Shouting.

I hate it when my parents shout.

If they shout at my siblings and I, it's usually because of something we did. Yes, maybe we did something wrong. But, they don't have to shout at us! It can get very, very irritating at times. Especially when you are in the middle of doing something.

Let's say, one morning, you are in a good mood. You decide to start on a short story you have to hand in that week. Once you started on the story, all the ideas came to you! You were typing and typing and typing. Then, your mom comes in and shouts at you about something. After that, she goes away. You look back at your computer and you can't help but to feel so drained out. You really don't feel like doing your homework anymore. And besides, all the ideas are gone from your head after all the shouting.

Although, it is not really that bad compared to your parents shouting at each other. I hate it when that happens!

I really do.

It's not that it irritates me more than my parents shouting me. It's just scary. Very scary. I mean, what if suddenly, one of them decided they were arguing too much and can't live with the other anymore? It nearly happened once when I was really young and it just scares me that it would happen again and this time my dad won't say sorry.

How can you be over something if it still hurt you?

When something happens, something we don't expect, something bad, most of the time, our brains try to act as if it never did happen. We go about our days like normal. It never happened, we tell ourself, we lie to ourself. Though, nothing will change the fact, it did happen. Nothing will change it. Not lying. Not pretending. Nothing will. But, there's no doubt, everyone likes to have hope that a certain bad thing, did not happen. We, humans live in hope. Our brains lie to ourself, hoping a miracle will happen to help cover up the truth.

But, you'll never be able to lie forever. Not even to yourself. Reality shows it's ugly face and you begin to realise. It strucks you like a lightning bolt, bringing you out of fantasy land and back into earth. It has happened! You feel the hurt, the pain, the lost, the loneliness. You start to cry. The whole time, it hurts like someone stabbed a hole into your heart. But, somehow, the knife is plunging deeper and deeper. You can't breathe! You feel suffocated! This goes on for hours. And as you cry, you begin to feel relief. All the pain you've been holding back seem to flow away with your tears. You feel exhausted and rather calm as you fall into a dreamless sleep.

You wake up the next day. It's a brand new day! And a brand new start of your life. You've released all the pain in you and it's time to move on. Friends seem to keep you going. They keep you up and your happy self. And you're life is busy. So many things to do! So many things to finish! So many things to learn! You go on with your life. Though there's something missing in your heart, everyone could hardly tell the difference.

Days pass. Months pass. I'm over it, you tell yourself. I can talk about it and I don't feel sad about it anymore. I'm over it!

Suddenly, one day, you sit down and think of it. Look through stuff that is related to it. I am over it anyways, I can look through these. It doesn't matter. But, as you look through all that, you feel the familiar sensation you felt months ago, the knife plunging into your heart, deeper and deeper and deeper. The feeling that you can't breathe. It suffocates you. It hurts you so much to face the truth. You ask yourself, How can something that doesn't matter to me anymore, hurt me so much? And the answer smacks you in the face,

It does matter to me.

It did for a long time and it still does.

And it will matter to me for a long time.

A very long time.

And there's nothing I can do about it.

Cause it's gone.

GONE.

Holidays are over.. School is back..

I haven't been blogging for ages!! Haha! Anyways, today is the last day of our autumn holidays. School starts tomorrow! Oh well, I miss ballet, anyways. I had 2 whole weeks of no ballet! I'm getting fat!!

The past week was pretty alright. Most of the time I've been online, chatting, cause there's nothing better to do. I went out with my friends to Forest Hill to watch Mr. Bean on Monday. And we also ended up watching the Ninja Turtle movie as well. It was pretty alright but we ended up spending most of our time we weren't in the cinema in the arcade. The guys wanted to play the games there. I wanted to get the stuffed toy penguin from the machine and Terence wasted 6 bucks for letting me try to get it. He got plenty of sweets instead! =P Haha! Then, on Wednesday, Grace, Victor, Terence, Tony, Bryan, Mark, my sister and I went to play badminton at Boxhill. Later, we went to the arcade and we played DDR!! =D It was so fun!!

The next Monday, we went out for a lunch at 12 pm a family friend we lost contact with and met again here. We went and eat dim sum!! I haven't eaten that for so long!! It was pretty good. =) We were all talking alot. We stayed in the restaurant a bit too long as the waitresses started telling us that the people who booked the tables next were here. Then, after that we went out to a park to chit chat. I had a vanilla milkshake! =D We ended up going home at about 4 pm!! On Tuesday, I went to play badminton again with Terence and his brother, friends and cousins. Later on, Tony and Victor joined us to go to the arcade. I wanted to play DDR again. We only ended playing it a couple of times as there were other people waiting to play it. Tony became so pro in DDR after one week!! Jealous.. =P Haha!

Yesterday, on Saturday, I went for my youth group's first drama and dance practices. The drama, Above All was at 10 am til 12 pm. And we finished learning the whole mime. =) It was pretty cool. And fun! Then, Audrey, the person in charge, asked me whether I wanted to join the other drama as well. She said "I can see that you can pick things up much more quicker than the others but then I guess, dancing helps". I think she needed another person for the drama and we only have 6 weeks to learn, practice and make it loook good!! At 1 to 3 pm, we had dance practice and it was awesome! I haven't danced for like 2 weeks so, I was really looking forward to dance practice. It was fun!! We are performing all 3 performances at camp in July. =D I'm so excited!! I woke up with sore muscles today, though. =P Oh well.. Used to it.

School starts tomorrow. Looking forward but not also.. Holidays are pretty boring but at the same time, school days are pretty tiring. Oh well.. There are things we just have to do, I guess. =) I should go now. Gotta wake up early tomorrow. =) Hope you guys have a great day!!