I can't define what makes a guy hot. 

Cause I haven't seen one yet. 

~stolen from Maria

My dream day

All I want is to hang with my friends somewhere that's peaceful and calm for a whole day. Just hang and do nothing that was planned beforehand. 

Sounds simple. 

But nowadays, everyone's busy. 

Always doing something else that is more important. 

Something I just realized..

I watched Step up 2 on Tuesday and it was an awesome movie but I didn't even think about the movie afterwards. 

Sigh.. 

What's wrong with me? 

You can be surrounded by people you know but still feel lonely

I haven't blogged in ages.. I know.. Here you go, Sam.. I'm updating my blog.. 

I feel so stupid, sometimes. I should have known better. I know.. But, for some things in life, we can't really help it if it happens. It's just the way we deal with it, I guess. How I do wish that it would not happen, though. Makes life more complicated and confusing. As if life was not complicated enough already. 

I know I don't make sense. Boo.. You're not suppose to know what is it about. If you do, you know too much.. 

Sigh.. I realized this year how much alone I felt. It's always been hard for me to make friends. Not so much the general friends you meet and say hi and hang around for a little while. More of the actual friends who are close to you. And you become one of the first people they would turn to for help, advice or just for someone to listen to them. I realized that if something happened to me, I wouldn't know who to go to. I realized that I didn't have my first-person-I-would-turn-to person. Cause I realized that the first people I would turn to would be the 2 closest friends I left in Malaysia. 

I don't know why but no matter how hard I try to find anyone who could be nearly as close to me as you both are, I can't. I definitely don't want to replace you guys. I just want someone who would have 3 day sleepovers with me and not get sick of me, go crazy and hyper with me but still I'm able to tell them about my life and not feel uncomfortable. But you both know how hard it is for me to put so much trust on people. I just, I don't know.. 

In the surface, I might act like everything is okay and I'm fine. I am happy with my life now, I am! I just sometimes wish I could find one person here that would be my person just so that I could miss you guys less and not feel so much like an outcast. 

Never have I wanted you both to be here with me so much! I feel lonely.. I feel so upset and confused and I don't know who to turn to. 

Sam and Hill, I really miss you both so much.. 

Love you both, 

Lyn  s2 

Dedicated to Samantha Claire because she says so ;P

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:

1. Fly all my close friends to Australia (with no return tickets so that you guys have to stay here with me) ;P
2. Fly to Malaysia - to go shopping & to see you guys if No.1 is impossible!!
3. Cash, gift card and/or movie tickets!
4. Lots of dancewear!!!
5. Butterfly stuff!! =)

The person who tagged you this:

Samantha Claire

Your 5 impressions of her:

1. Pretty (thought she doesn't think so)
2. Organised!!
3. Loves shopping! (One reason why I love her so much) ;P
4. Creative
5. Misses me? ;P (I hope)

Most memorable things she has given/done for you:

I can go crazily hyper and she won't mind and she'll go hyper too. And I love that she's just there just to hang around and be with me.

If she becomes my lover, I will:

O.O Ask God if He really wants this to happen.

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

That I didn't go back to Malaysia for years and she misses me too much and therefore she is mad at me. ;P

Pass the quiz to the people that you wish to know how they feel about you:

1. Samantha Claire
2. Sammie (cousin)
3. Hilly
4. Kate
5. Marcia
6. Tony

Break my heart for what breaks Yours, Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause

I actually don't see any point in actually updating my blog much anymore cause nobody reads my blog anymore. Okay.. Except Kate, Marcia, Sam (cousin) and Sze Rong- sometimes, when he's bored only. ;P Haha! I finally added you, Sze Rong! I couldn't see my template stuff for awhile cause my internet was so slow.. & it's not just an excuse. However lazy I am I'm not that lazy. ;P

Marcia! Thanks! Though it was late but it's the thought that counts! =) Hmm.. Well, I'm doing pretty alright here. School's okay.. Dance is AWESOME!! (as usual!) I'm taking dance as a sport in school for this semester. And there's gonna be a performance thing, Kid's Kaberet, in September. It's gonna be for kindy kids! Gonna be fun! I'm gonna be a hunter, a hippo, a skin person and I don't know what more! I've also got a Rain solo and I'm also in Don Quixote (my teacher asked me to join the older class for this cause they needed more people and it's en pointe! I sprained my ankle about a month ago and it's still not better! I really need to practice en pointe!! But I'm just gonna leave it up to God. It's awesome, btw.) Hmm.. And we've got a common test this term. Hmm.. So not looking forward to it! Argh!! Hmm.. And I think that's about it. Oh!! I joined my youth group's dance and drama ministry (obviously ;P ), the worship team (singing!) and the welcoming team (it's pretty easy so yeah..)

I really should go.. I've got loads and loads of homework and I've hardly started!!! I'm getting so lazy.. All your fault! =P


Yes, you!


Hmm..


I should go!!

P.S. Those of you who have never heard Hosanna from Hillsong United.. GO LISTEN TO IT NOW!! -click on Hosanna for the one on myspace(music only) and click on LISTEN for the one on youtube(with video)- Enjoy! =D

I'm 15! =)

Thank you so much, Sam! I love it! Though you think it's not as good but still, it's the thought that counts! =) Love you loads!