Only you and God knows how you're really feeling.
We hide how we are really feeling cause we know nobody else will understand.
Whether it's lonely,
unhappy,
weak,
disappointed,
betrayed,
sad,
pain,
terror,
or emptiness.
Nobody will really understand how you feel.
Except Him.
Learn to trust Him.
With all your heart.
As how you trusted your close friends.
But with Him,
He'll never betray you.
He always keeps his promise.
He loves you.
No matter what,
You'll be precious to Him.
Forever.

I told you, I'm not in your life anymore.

You said, no I am in your life.

But look at us now.

I am left out of your life.

Totally.

Completely.

And you know what?

It hurts not to know what's going on in your life.

You, not telling me about your day anymore.

Whose fault is it really?

Yours or mine?

Honestly, neither and both.

I'm sorry for not being there for you when I should have.

I regret not being the best that I could be.

I regret not appreciating you enough when I had the chance.

But regret ain't gonna change a thing.

Ever since I came here, all I wanted was to be with you.

To be in your arms and feel like I was wanted, trusted, secure and safe.

You saw who I am inside and who I can be.

You loved me for being me.

My imperfect, selfish and spoilt self.

But it is me.

Plain old me.

And I thank you so much for that.

You taught me so many thing.

Sometimes not even realising so.

And again, I have to say 'thank you' for that.

There's really nothing more I can say.

But, you'll always be someone special.

All our memories together will remain in my heart.

I've got to admit though, it hurts.

I don't know what will happen in the future.

Maybe not again.

But, who knows?

Maybe, again.

We'll just wait and see.

Hope is still in my heart.

I'll meet you there..

May you have a blessed day
Even if it is without much of me
But I'm still there
Though you can’t see me
I am there
In your heart
I'm thinking of you
Will be thinking of you
Till I see you again
Where the impossible become possible
And anything the greatest
Most creative mind could ever imagine
Would come true
Where anything
And everything could and would happen

I’ll meet you there, baby.
In my sweetest and most memorable dreams.


Love,
Kim.

From This Moment On

(I do swear that I'll always be there.

I'd give anything and everything

and I will always care.

Through weakness and strength,

happiness and sorrow,

for better, for worse,

I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun

From this moment you are the one

Right beside you is where I belong

From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed

I live only for your happiness

And for your love I'd give my last breath

From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart

Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start

You and I will never be apart

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this

There is nothing I wouldn't give

From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love

And you're the answer to my prayers from up above

All we need is just the two of us

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this

There is nothing I wouldn't give

From this moment

I will love you as long as I live

From this moment on

By, Shania Twain and Bryan White.

My Flight to Aussie (and how I got to Ormond College)

My flight to Aussie was on the 3rd at 9.45 pm (Malaysian) so we had to be there at about 7 pm (Malaysian). My dad, my mom and Tim went to KLIA with me to send me off. We were a little late, though cause we went and visit Sam for my sake(It was the last time I'd be seeing Sam till i go back to Malaysia). My friend whom I was travelling with, Chloe, was already there waiting for me. We had to wait really long to check in cause the systems were down for quite awhile. Which was okay, i guess, cause Chloe and i got up graded to business class seats somehow. The air stewardess kinda did a double take before pointing for us to go to the business class section.

Chloe and I didn't even know we given business class seats until we boarded the plane. Just minutes before, Chloe was just teasing the other girls cause their tickets read 'Economy Class' while ours read 'Business Club Class'. I didn't think much of it and by the way she was teasing, i knew she didn't think much of it as well. So, we were kinda suprised when we were pointed to got to the business class section. I told Chloe she should joke more often.

We boarded the plane at about 9.20 pm. Chloe and I were really eager for the plane to depart. So, we were really happy when the plane started moving. Chloe was like, "Why aren't we flying yet?" And we were really disappointed when the plane slowed down. Apparently, there were some technical errors. They served us some snacks and drinks. We only left at about 11.45 to 12 pm (Malaysian) which was like 2 hours later than the time we were suppose to depart. I just thank God that they realised it before we departed.

After we were in the air, Chloe started playing games and i started watching a movie while they served us our dinner which was buns and fruit, satay, prawn salad and beef steak with gravy and potatoes. The air stewardess even asked us whether we wanted desert which was apple and cinnamon something. But, Chloe and I were too full! We didn't even finish our beef steak!

Then, we went to sleep at about 2 am (Malaysian). It was so super comfy! Cause you can put the seats about all the way down. But, the flight was quite shaky so, Chloe kept on jerking out of sleep. I slept pretty well, I guess. I usually can't sleep properly on airplanes, so yeah.

At about 6 am (Malaysian), they turned on the lights to wake up those who want breakfast. They served us buns and all with fruits and juice. Chloe had her favourite, apple juice! While I had orange. After we finished our breakfast it was about time to land.

The landing was painful! At least for me. Both my ears were blocked! And i couldn't hear Chloe a couple of times when she was talking to me. And it was really painful! One thing i hate about flights is that the taking off and landing gives you ear blocks! One ear was really bad. The other not so bad but still blocked!!

Anyways, then we went out of the airplane. And one side of my ear was still blocked! We waited for the other girls to come out. All together there were 10 of us. While we were taking our luggage, we saw a cute little beagle being trained to sniff for illegal stuff. It was really cute. My luggage was easy to spot as I tied a bright purple plastic bag on the handle. Chloe was helping me look for my luggage cause I was taking care of our hand luggages. She was like, "Her luggage has a purple plastis bag tied to it. Oh! There it is!" *grabs the luggage with the help of Mei Li and Jessica. Mei Li saw her luggage go around twice but missed it twice! Finally, the last time, we managed to get it.

Then, we went through the declaration thinggy. And went out to meet the person who was supposed to bring us to the college. Apparently, she has waited for us for 2 hours plus and had to wait for some girls from New Zealand so, we had to get taxis by ourselves. So, we got 2 Maxi taxis, 5 girls in each taxi, to bring us to the college. Our taxi driver didn't know where is Ormond College and was expecting us to know. He was pissed of when HE got to the wrong place and blamed in on us. Luckily, we didn't get lost. The college was only on the opposite side.

Our taxi fee was extra compared to the the other group's fee, though. It was quite alot more. I think nearly ten dollars more. That's expensive. Oh well..

I'll continue my days in Ormond College in another post. I wanna go eat Tim Tams now. And Smith's. (For those people who haven't been to Aussie and have no idea what in the world are Tim Tams and Smith's well, Tim Tams are really absolutely fantastic chocolates and Smith's are really nice yummy chips that you usually can't get in Malaysia unless you know where to get them. And it's really expensive in Malaysia). That was suppose to make your mouth water!

Gotta go now. My stomach's calling out for snacks!

Love ya'll.

Miss me!

the vet just called just now and sam's ok. just that he has to stay there for a day or two. they have to watch him and all. so yeahh. i guess he'll be fine.

sorry for not writing for awhile. but i just couldnt get hold of my comp! seriously, when no one is using the comp, it's either i'm out/going out or i'm busy doing something else at home. whenever i'm free, it's either my brother is online or my sister is playing games. oh well..

anyways, i got the exam results for my percentage and all. it's actually quite good cause i got really really really low for history and i still managed a percentage more than 80%. it's okay la. i know all of you smart people got percentages more than 85% and also more than 90%. but i'm not that smart la.

and i went out to ou with sam(cousin), kah yee, grace, tim, chee fai and kah yee's bf, siew wai last friday. we went and watch john tucker must die. jesse metcalfe is so hot!! channing tatum, from she's the man, is not bad. quite hot. and he's gonna be starring in this dance show, step up. i wanna go watch it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways, then there was the church dedication last sunday. i was supposed to dance. the service was supposed to started at 4 pm. but a few of the us, especially most of the dances were there since 10 am. but, when we went there the auditorium wasnt open. so, we went to the mamak and only went back to church at 11 am. when it was 4 pm, the wasnt any electricity at first and the whole church was praying bout it. someone called tenaga and they said the electricity probably won't come back til bout 5 p.m. but suddenly, we, the dancers, were told to get ready. and so, we danced at the begining of the service. it felt so great to perform. especially for God. and then, i went down to the 4th floor to get my stuff to change into my choir attire - a black collar shirt, black skirt and red scarf. and went back up for service. then, we, the dbd choir, sang to 'let your people rise' at the end of service. and yeahh.. that was it.

then, i went back to ipoh on monday to visit my relatives. my 2 year old cousin, timothy, is so so cute! he was singin high school musical songs. he doesnt know the lyrics but he knows the tune. super cute!!! and his older brother, benjamin, is hsm crazy so timothy must have learnt all the hsm songs through his older brother. there was hsm dance along on tuesday and benjamin and my sis was dancing along to it. so yeahh.. then we came back today in the morning.

oh.. and when we came back from ipoh, we found out sam (my dog) super big wounds on his body. and they were bite wounds. we all figured out it must be rex (my other dog) since there were no other creatures around capable of bitting sam like that. unless the dog that lives in the house on the other side of the road could really jump really high or if a rat could have bitten a wound that big. and sam couldnt walk properly. so my mom is taking him to the vet next morning since the vet isnt open today and i hope he'll be fine.

that's about it, i guess.. yeahh.. i know this post is boring.. but oh well..

i gotta go already.. i'll try to get some interesting stuff to write la. okayy..